Single and over the mingle...

Dating. What a fucking mine field. Even when you think you meet a normal one they turn out to be incapable of anything more than a dick pic, or making a reference to their probably, below average sized penis in every conversation you have...

Also I don't know about any other girls but I have never received a random dick pic and been like 'yeah I need a bit of that', yanno what I mean. Like seriously fellas, why must you send them to us, like were going to say, "Oh my god your penis is so beautiful, I just want to worship you and your penis in every way... oh and don't worry no strings attached babe!"

And while we’re on the subject of no strings attached relationships, has anyone been in one of them and it actually worked out for you? In my experience it’s always been a disaster. Most of the time it’s me who has ended up getting hurt, mainly because I have an inability to distinguish between sex and feelings. Which I feel I am not alone in. On the other side when I’ve tried to let a guy down its ended in me being super awkward or just getting further fucked over because I’m a pushover.

But back to dating, where do you start when you’re a grown up? When you’re at school, college and Uni you are constantly meeting new people but when you are all grown and start working in a big girl/boy job where are we meant to meet people?

Tinder? Bumble? POF? I’ve tried them all at one point at one point or another and I must be honest I haven't had much luck... if any. Like what are you meant to put in your bio? How much cleavage are you meant to show in your pictures? What sort of pictures are you meant to use? What do you say when you send the first message? Are you meant to send the first message? It’s all too much and even when I think I have nailed it with perfect pictures and witty bio, every person I seem to ever match with is either just looking for a quick fuck, doesn't reply or messages me saying "I love curvy girls, wanna swap pics".

So yeah, I think dating apps, and work, are off the table for me as far as meeting men. But the question is how else do you meet people? I would never approach a guy in a club or at a bar that I thought was attractive for fear of being rejected, I think 'oh but I’m not pretty enough' or 'I’m too fat'. I have also never been approached in a club, which is apparently a thing that happens? To be honest I'm not that surprised about not being approached. I have an

Incredible resting bitch face which just tells people to stay away! (I'm working on that)

(FYI if you think I’m a munter then id fast forward this little paragraph.) I'm going to give myself a little bit of bigging up now because I don't think I’m unattractive, I don't think I have an awful body and I think I’m a pretty okay person so I sometimes find it confusing as to what I am letting off that is putting guys off me, but I do have a slightly controversial theory that some of my other fat sisters and brothers may agree with...

I honestly think from the amount of messages I receive, a lot of guys fancy plus size women but they (I assume) are also too embarrassed to date them for some reason. I don't know... maybe its fear of being ridiculed by their friends or not looking like a "desirable couple" to other people because they're out with a fat person. Whatever it is I feel like it’s so hard to find a date with a well-rounded human being who just wants to get to know YOU and not your tit size.

Also if you just want to fuck a fat girl because you want to know what it’s like, or maybe you think it would be funny to tell your friends. Or you are scummy AF, like I know some people are, and they have been dared to sleep with a "fat girl", please re-evaluate your life choices because NOBODY deserves to be used like that.

This isn't a post where I give you my answer to finding love and dating because honestly I don't fucking know, but I’ll keep on searching and if you feel like you have mastered the world of dating and meeting non judgy wonderful people then let me know because what I've been doing up to now has not been working!

Let me know if you want to write a piece for the Happiness Hut, about anything you think people want to hear about!!! (and I will happily publish anonymously if you so wish)

Thanks for reading,

Leah xoxo